Monday, February 8, 2010

Santa Kent and Sarah and a Year of Change

So much is on my mind this morning. So much has happened in the last year. A year ago our country voted for change. I wasn't one of those. I am a pretty spontaneous person, but I had gotten pretty comfortable in my little corner of ministry and family. Then Change happened. I remember spending the Sunday before Valentine's Day, praying and holding a woman who needed assured that her Jesus was faithful and that her Father held her in the palm of His hand. She loved Jesus so much that it was hard for her to believe that He could love her in return. So often we have it backwards. We think we are worthy of Him and that we deserve His love. She got it, that none of us our worthy, but His blood covers us in spite of who we are. I believe she found comfort in Him that day. I spoke with her a little bit that week, and then on Friday, Feb. 13, 2009, we received a call to come to the hospital. Teresa Frank's home had caught on fire, and by the time we arrived, she had passed away. After we left the hospital, we went by to check on her 7-year old daughter, Sarah. That was the beginning.

Now a year later, Sarah lives with us. She has become a precious part of our family. Change is always hard. A close friend reminded me, "When God calls you to something, it's not always comfortable." It hasn't been. Sarah is such a survivor. She has been through so much in her short life. As we think of our changes and voice them in family conversations, we think of the changes that Sarah has had to deal with and doesn't voice.

My heart breaks for her. It is hard to remember the things she has been through, when I'm having to be stern with her for misbehavior. As I am teaching her to call out to Jesus for help when it's time to choose right or wrong, I am reminding myself to call out to Him when I feel that change is overwhelming. My favorite time with Sarah is at bedtime. That is when I lie down with her and we pray. She cuddles and loves with all she has. I hold tight during this time. Some nights she really opens up about her feelings. Sometimes there are tears, sometimes there are giggles, but during that time, never anger or frustration.

Peter went out on the water and began to sink, he cried out, "Lord, save me." IMMEDIATELY, Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. Then all who saw it worshiped him saying, "Truly you are the Son of God." (Matt. 14).

A little paraphrasing, but all to say that when we call out, He hears us. My prayer for all that we have been given at this time, is that Kent and I, Jared, Maci, Molly, and Sarah, and all those who see our struggles as well as our triumphs, will worship God and that HE will be glorified! We call out to Him for help, and He is faithful, and we rejoice.

Please join us as we pray for Sarah during this next week and leading up to her birthday on Feb. 27th. Whether she is able to express it verbally or just show it through her actions, we know that we are seeing the emotions come out. They are there and in so many ways, are still raw. Pray for her family, as I know they are grieving this week. They loved their little sister, Teresa. Pray that we will follow Christ step by step. Not going ahead or trailing behind what God calls us to do.

What are you going through that involves change? Change is hard. Change is not comfortable. Because He first loved us and gave His life for us, we too can give of ourselves and we desire to praise God is the opportunities to do so.

1 Peter 1:6-7: In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith-of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire-may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.

Praising our Savior!